punks and preps, natural born enemies

anything that involves straylight runs turns out fantastic. thursday night my bro and i headed up to fon du lac (funny name stupid place) for a concert. hellogoodbye, straylight run, and motion city soundtrack. we headed up without tickets (we were told we could get em at the door) to a show that we weren't quite sure how to get to. i made jamin drive there so i could sleep, cuz well, i needed sleep. only problem was that everytime i'd start to get comfortable and drift off we'd hit a bump and the stupid glove compartment would fall open and hit my legs and then i'd jump up wide awake. stupid jetta. anyways, our friend spencer from sturgeon bay (way up north) was meeting us there. and naturally we were kinda late so he beat us there and called with the news that we couldn't get tix at the door. crap man!
we were like 15 minutes away at that point so there was no way we were turning back. plan b: start looking for scalpers. so we find the place and meet up with spencer and start our search for scalpers. there were cops and security everywhere so this proved to be very hard to do (mainly becuz i'm not so sure its entirely legal). we found one drunken guy who said he'd give us some for $100 each. so i'm like "screw u" and we continue on. our search revealed spoiled preppy brats everywhere, when we asked if anyone had extra tix they would say no and rub it in that they would get in and we wouldn't. we did this for about an hour. we met up with some other friends who did have tix and hung out until it was time for them to go in....and us to not. haha! jamin tried to conga line his way in saying "i don't have a ticket! i don't have a ticket!" believe it or not it didn't work. so we just waited and watched all these stupid college brats walk in. oh yeah, this was mtvu's college tour, gross i know, but these bands r too good to pass up. when we heard hellogoodbye start it actually hurt, knowing we weren't in there and having met some of the jerks who were. most of them didn't even know the bands they just got free tix for going to that stupid college.
plan c: rush the security or sneak in. so we decided to take another lap around the gym and scout out the security and look for doors that weren't locked. we found one door but didn't know if security was right by it so we kept looking. the door to back stage was wide open and u could see everything from behind and hear things perfect. so we stood off and watched through there for a bit from aways away. then jamin and spencer got the bright idea to go and wave at the tours buses to see if any of the bands were in there and could get us in. i stayed and watched hellogoodbye play from afar. they waved for a couple minutes and the guys in the bus just closed the blinds on them, lol. so they came back. by that time i had decided i was gonna talk to one of the "rent a cops" and see if he could get us in. so i go to talk to this guy and he has a lazy eye...or two lazy eyes, i couldn't tell they were soooooo crazy! so i start swaying a lil while talking becuz i'm never sure when he actually can see me. he said he couldn't let us in backtsage but we could chill right by the door and probably meet all the bands becuz they all went in and out of that door. SCORE!!!
so we ended up being like 20 feet from the stage and saw everything on stage and behind the scenes. th security there rocked! they kept asking us how we liked the show and giving high fives, not at all concerned that we were hanging out were ppl weren't supposed to be, haha! great! hellogoodbye ended and started coming out by us with their gear and what not. so there we were standing in the middle of hellogoodbye and all their stuff! who needs tickets?! HA! stupid college kids take that!! we actually got to be roadies and helped them load the trailer and everything, that was soooooooooo cool! if u ever have seen them, i got to load up the raft and banana suites!! oh too great! then chris the drummer hung out with us for awhile and i have it all set up to fufill one of my life long dreams at warped tour! thanx chris!!
next was straylight run. best live band ever. they played everything i wanted them to and even added a cello. hott! by this time of the security gaurds had offered us free tix to get in for the show, and we had seriously considered turning him down becuz we were having such a blast! i said yes finally becuz i wanted to go in and buy some merch. and then headed right back out for the rest of the show. the dude saved us each $25! told u the security guys rocked there! straylight run was absolutely amazing. too bad the crowd was sooooooooooo awful, they did nothing for any of the bands. losers. so when we met them we apologized for how lame the crowd was, michelle (girl from straylight run who i've wanted to meet ever since i knew they existed) said that was typical of college tours. poor bands!! to have to go out there give it ur all and get nothing but some off beat clapping and drunken college kids shouting crap. so we chatted for awhile with michelle and john. they were sooooooo nice. we apologized for jamin and spencer scaring them earlier with the waving. haha they thought it was funny when they knew it was some super crazy ppl. man this is a ridiculously long post and if ur not into music like me u prob won't appreciate it the same. sorry if i bored u, i'll end it here. theres more to th story but this is soooooo l ong haha u can ask me sometime if u want. "sing me something soft, sad and delicate, loud and outta key, sing me anything"

hands in the sky big shot

so i think the time is almost upon us. it's been just over a year but u can only take so much. i'm referring to my car of course. i've giving it soooo many chances too, but it HATES me. i'm not paranoid or crazy here, it really does. i've taken a lot of crap from that piece of crap. for instance when i was on my way to visit a friend way up north and my window fell into the door and refused to come back up....it ruined my weekend.i had to go home, along the way it rained...a lot. or when i was on my way to a concert and whoa! guess what! same window fell into the door again! i had to put everything in my car into my trunk so no one would steal stuff...mind u i have around 100 cds in my car at all times...into the trunk they went. and lets not forget that terribly cold rainy day when i went thru a puddle (as u can't really avoid on rainy days) and my car broke down in the left turn lane of a busy intersection. i was in the freezing cold for 4 hours. hey how bout when my tire got a hole and i had to stop and fill it at like every other gas station i saw and when i got it fixed the friggin wheel bearing went! theres the constant adding of coolant...my car threatens to overheat on me at least once a month. and then theres fred, fred visits way too often! and usually for no reason aside from getting me all worried like "great whats wrong with this thing now???". and the latest series of events. i had a headlight burnt out, w/e right? i got it fixed. two days later i get up to go to work i turn on my car and theres a bright blue flash....other headlight went out. grrrrrr. totally got me pulled over tuesday nite after the bookstudy. it was so pathetic becuz i saw the cop there earlier and made a note to go home a different way. the guy still saw me and pulled me over!! so i have 15 day to get it fixed (just did that) and go have a stupid cop look at it sign something and mail it in (didn't do that yet). so i was on my way to go and get it fixed after work today i reach to open my glove compartment and the handle breaks off in my hand!!! AHHHH!!! this abby/jetta relationship is so over! and that doesn't even include the countless times my steering wheel has locked up and the alarm went off while i was either in my car or tryin to get in. and my back shox or pretty much shot. ok, i feel better getting that all out, i'm gonna go kick the jetta a bit and get the rest of my frustration out. take care all, avoid all vw's!!!

red eyes on orange horizons

"Change if you want, but don't you go and change for me I can love you as you are I didn't mean to make you want to leave." "You may tire of me as our December sun is setting because I’m not who I used to be".
so this past week i've messed up a lot. car wars have gone too far and as a result theres much anger. i hope we can all get over that, we r so stupid. i am so stupid. found out last nite another friend of mine is being df'd. i sure can pick em hey? but the most troubling and what i'm losing the most sleep over is all becuz of some stupid ill thought out comment i made on a past post. blogs r the devil. well, that and i just suck sometimes.
is it possible to take something back? like really is it? i meant what i said, not all of it, and not how its being taking. i'm on the verge of hating myself for knowing how much pain i've caused. i know becuz i can feel it too. and i know u. and somehow i forgot the fact that u know me too. sometimes better then i know myself. u know i changed. and for the better too. that doesn't make anyone else any less of a person. and despite my stupid death cab quote it doesn't change the fact i'll love u always and forever. i was on a stupid rampage of random thoughts. and it came out so wrong, and some of it just not true. come on, rollins, reciting the poetry with the cape all into it, and then u look back and ur like "what the crap?? man that sux!! it makes no sense" i had a rollins moment. u know what i mean. i was never meant to hurt....well occasionally at sports or various concerts...but not like this.
" sometimes they break u". not intentionally, never intentionally. i went off on that line remember? u still have it stashed in a book full of ur poetry somewhere. my point is....and i think i have a point, i might just be rambling with my grief, don't let my ill thought out stupid sentences break u. or me for that matter. my words hurt too many sometimes. i'll leave u with this, i said it once i'll say it again, u r a huge part of me, and who i am. and no matter who i become, i will always love who u r.

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You said it was always in me to be great

guess i kinda blew that. as is to be expected ppl mess up all the time. but not to the point where i cuz anyone i care for even the slightest dismay. and i am so sorry for that. i'd write more but the majority won't have a clue as to what i'm talking about. so instead i'll leave u with messed up pix from last nite. we went ice skating (my first time ever and i didn't fall! rock on me!!) and then hung out at dairy queen for seriously at least 3 hours, lol. soooo much fun tho. and after that we went to chris and sarahs to do random stupid things. along the way my windshield wiper broke.it was kind of vertical and making awful awful sounds. so my wonderful brother grabs my scraper (for snow and ice in winter) rolls down the window and starts to brush away the rain, man it made it so much worse!! so then he trys scarping it away, haha keep in mind this is all while i'm trying to follow chris and sarah back to their place. well we got there and he fixed it!!....until we were driving back home and it broke on the freeway. my car, it hates me. freds back. i named my check engine light fred. that way when it goes on...which is more then it should i can get excited becuz freds back!! so i'll be chilling with fred for awhile. "never said a thing to hurt youit's what I didn't say that made you cryand in all honestyI never would have deserted youI never dreamt that you would say goodbye"