so whatz new? nothin really. but at the same time way too much. i've been doing this thing where i'm thinkin far too much, about friendz, past,now,future, just too much. trapt in my own thoughtz! yikez! i'm feeling very stressed rite now and i don't like it. normally i'm not one to freak out easily....u'll find ur stronger then u know when ur finally put the the test...newayz, my job of all thingz has been stressing me out, i'm kinda doing the jobz of three ppl at once rite now and i'm terribly underpaid for it too. not to say i'm all about money, becuz i'm not, itz the devil, but itz frusteratin knowin i'm gettin totally ripped off for how hard i'm workin. oh well it'll pass, and if it doesn't i'll blow up the lab....or talk to my boss what ever one seemz to suit my mood at the time.
wed. nite a brother from my parentz cong. came over for dinner, it was pleasant but so depressing at the same time. when i was with the same hall as my entz....yearz ago i mean, this brother and his wife were awesome! they totally took my older bro jesse basically under there wingz and encouraged him hardcore and me too a bit. i'm convinced they r a major factor as to him doin so well in the truth rite now. sadly this broz wife had cancer and passed away a few yearz ago. it was kind of crushing. the last time i saw this bro was at her funeral, and i hadn't seen him since. it just kinda broke my heart to see him without her. i've been thinkin far too much.
i've been havin this issue of not being satisfied where i am and taking too much forgranted, at least i'm seeing this so now i can work on fixin it. do u ever have those momentz where u say to urself "self, therez no place in the world i'd rather be then rite here, rite now" ? i do. but never here. itz disapointin. i need to get back to where i do say that. i know i sound just like everyone else rite now, wah wah wah blah blah blah poor me i h8 it here i can't wait to get out boo hoo hoo. there is more to it then that, i'm not just one of everyone. ur just gonna have to take my word on it.
this weekend i'm tryin to accomplish a lot of good, there r some friendz who r goin thru some tougher timez...we'll try and make them easier timez. a friend of mine is terribly sick, terminal actually, gonna visit that person. do urselvez a favor, NEVER take ur friendz forgranted, be thankful for the timez u've had together and anticipate those u'll have in the future, alwayz try to make some1z day a little bit brighter...even if ur day sux, keep ur promisez, and stop sometime to appreciate the little thingz. well i was supposed to be nappin...i've been a bit exhausted, oh well. "buck up baby, u'll be fine". thanx ra ca
