"peace in a piece of everything"

i love my friends. i find it interesting how deeds or acts done in th past can still affect ur present. take the pic, it was made for me two years ago. i still love it and it still helps. thanx.

my life's become a boring pop song and everyones singing along

friday morning i'm at work. i walk in and i'm like "ohh thats funny lori and jennifer match with their green sweaters." i look around "wow, sure r a lotta ppl wearing green today" then is dawns on me. st. patricks day. duh! then i look down at myself....to my horror i see i'm wearing a bright green shirt and green chucks to match. "OH CRAP!!!" immediatly ppl point out my green and i explain to them that i am in fact an idiot and forgot and that this was totally not intentional. i was gonna meet a friend for lunch that day so i was just gonna make her switch shirt and shoes with me, haha. unfortunatly my friends r sometimes very lame and undependable...and i mean that in the nicest possible way....well she over slept and therefore never made it to lunch. i felt better in the afternoon tho becuz a co-worker made the point that just the fact i wore green not on purpose goes to show how completely oblivious i was as to the holiday and that i really don't care and i was too cool anyways. haha not kidding, someone called me cool! HA!

friday nite i had some ppl over, thankfully i put an end to the rumor there was a big party at my house before i had tons of ppl showing up. yeah i go up north last weekend and i come back to this rumor that theres a big party going on at my house! some ppl i tell ya! just crazy. lets see, we ate, we shot pool ping pong, broke some of the ceiling and did a wonderful cover of free falling... FREE WILLIE!! haha good times.

saturday wasn't too shabby. went out in service...cold. then came home and napped! it was magnificent! i awoke to a phone call from a friend around 3:30 seeing about dinner later and asked if i wanted a ride. haha this is kinda boring isn't it? terrible sorry i just woke up. i came home and the power was out, so i'm like well i'll go to the dr and see if my thumbs broken and when i come back we'll prob have power again. i came back and we soooooooooooooooooo didn't. darn. so i fell alseep cuz there was nothing to do and it was getting really cold, cuz well the power goes out and we lose heat, so i woke up not too long ago and i'm in abit of a daze.

so there was a beach party on sunday. what a wonderful idea! really! the lakefront in march in wi. my friends r brilliant. i was fun, but kinda not so cool becuz i got sand in me shoes and we headed straight to a concert after that. so jamin spencer and i the most uncomfortable concert feet ever. oh man but it was sooooooooo worth it!! this show was great!! the academy is... panic, acceptance, hello goodbye. so we get into the place and we need to find our other friends. and the shows sold out so its pretty packed. but no worries, we have our ways. we walk in screaming "CHIPMUNK!!! CHIPMUNK!!!" and then pausing to hear the "CHIPMUNK" shouted back. we didn't hear it, but we got some pretty strange looks, psh like we aren't used to it. finally we get to the otherside and 5 of us at once scream CHIPMUNK!!!!!!! as loud as we can. seriously i think everyone in there stopped and looked at us, so i did the casual "oh don't mind us" and then we heard something. into the crowd we go and we find our ppl!! YAY! chipmunk never fails.

well i'd continue, but i don't want to. "just close ur eyes everything will be okay."

hold my hand through the thick and thicker

sooooooooo how is everyone?? fantasic i'd expect, becuz u know, everything is wonderful for everyone all of the time. HA! what a load of crap hey? the harsh reality is that enough is never enough. allow me to explain myself. i learned so much this weekend on my vast travels of the crunkt up state of wisconsin....and a bit of michigan (when u want a milkshake u want a milkshake!! even if it means going to a different state to get it! haha) anyways i'm trying really hard to make the rounds and visit friends i have not seen in awhile...even if it means traveling close to 1000 miles in a single weekend. once i make a friend i intend to keep them, i don't wanna ever end up like " ohhh yeah so and so..we used to be tight, wonder what ever happened to them" or anything like that, so i try hard to keep in touch and be involved in my friends lives in one way or another. oh crap...not using "proper spacing"

yeah! there we go! so i visited with many friends i haven't seen in far too long, including some of my favorite ppl in the entire world. we all had some good times, but also discussed a lot of the bad thats been happening lately as well, in our lives, in the world, in general. and enough is never enough. u think u give enough, help enough, take enough crap, but u don't. it doesn't end, not in this system of things at least. u have to realize that and accept it and make up ur mind that ur still gonna do what u can, even though it'll never be enough. am i making any sense to anyone? once a friend always a friend, through thick and thicker. just keep giving, it won't be enough, but it will suffice.

......y does no one in my house ever answer the phone??

things r gonna look up. i'm gonna make them. work is so frusterating right now, crazy lady quit and lazy dentist's son got fired. which means everyones at there wits ends and i seem to be taking the brunt of it, NOT appreciated. i'm learning a complete new job, and yeah i'm gonna mess up, its a learning process, but lately if i do anything wrong ppl freak out bad on me, it kinda wears u down. and then there's evil boss lady who i'm convinced wants me to fail. i'm gonna hang in there just to spite her.....and to learn more so i can get a job at a different lab...perhaps futher south. just been kinda rough, a bit stressed, which is odd really, becuz i don't stress easily, i usually choose to ignore it. thats become a tad tougher to do when things just keep piling up for u to worry about. meh w/e. things get better, i'll make them better, and i will spite evil boss lady! muahahahaaa!!!!

oh! the pix! so i woke up one morning bright and early for work and i pull my shades up and whoa!! coolest sky ever!! sorry for the blur, i took the pic thru my window and so it kinda reflected i was gonna run outside and take more but when i got downstairs and opened the door it was gone! how weird!! and the other is me and my beloved sock monkey baxter! : ) take care all. "luv wut u b" -s.c.

imperfection is my perfection

serious lack of sleep at the moment, but i guess thats to be expected. afterall, i gots sick and missed a weekend so i had a lot of fun to catch up on. friday nite tegan (thats right, i have my very own tegan!!! jealous??) and i went to hartford to hang out with a nice bunch of ppl i haven't seen in awhile, shot pool, air hockey, managed to play 6 people fooseball....at once, haha that got violent. that was fun tho. i now have a new nickname, the hustler. you'd be amazed what u'd learn about ppl if u just take the time to listen, or watch, just take the time. and if u can't take it, do urself a favor and make time for them.
saturday i was out in service for the morning, haha lets just say the watchtower article on patience could NOT have come at a better time. afterwards i went home and did lots of pointless things, but pointless things that had to get done. then i put on some soothing music wrapped up in my favorite blanket and took a nap.......well for a bout 5 minutes at least, then there was a knock at the door. word of advice, if ur in that situation, do NOT answer the door!!!...i answered the door. awaiting was a lovely family that used to go to my old hall. well, they were lovely until somehow i got stuck watching their 2 kids, 5 and 8. ok, i don't like children in particular that much, my problem, is they seem to all love and adore me, i don't think i'll ever understand y, maybe its becuz i usually act kinda childish. w/e. neways i ended up being bossed around by this minature like 5 year old girl for the next hour, the basement was trashed in less than 5 minutes....ugh. then thankfully my friend mojo showed up and we escaped to my room. killing time for the next hour or so, waiting for phil...aka conan to show up, and then mojo phil j-man and i were on our way to madison to catch a show. we met up with lil matt, lil matt rox!! we piled into his old school huge suburban and were off to see inara george, the rogue wave, and nada surf. i was in all my glory, this show was so fantstic!! do urself a favor and check out inara george, she was captivating on stage, amazing really. there were these guys in front of me pretty much critiquing her on and on and i'm finally like "dude seriously, take her for what she is, shut up and enjoy it. like u could come close to anything this original" i talked to her a bit, very nice girl, from l.a. she had a lot of quirks that reminded me of a friend of mine. overall the entire show was sooooo great, really. i feel kind of bad tho cuz no one that came with me really knew those bands or that type of music so they didn't appreciate it the same.
i'm so boring right now. i haven't much to actually speak, but a lot to say. i'm perfectly content with listening. sunday jamin luke and i went up north to see the ripon guys....and gals. was good, would've been better if i were more awake. jammed...ok, attempted to jam with jesse and spencer a bit, that was so much fun!! jesse's guitar is freaking hott!! umm...it snowed....woop de doo. ok, i'll end this, more then enough nothingness has been said. take care all. "i miss u more than u know, but i know time makes u move on"

falling for you to catch me

waiting

Well maybe
It seems I've wasted every single opportunity
To get this right
And maybe
It's all because the inspiration that's inside of me
Has been denied
From all I want
And all I need tonight
So come with me
Just take my hand and I'll make sure to show you everything
We'll trace these lines
Of apathy
And self destruction to avoid responsibility
I'll bide my time
For all I want
And all I need
So I'm holding out
For a piece of good advice
To get me through this
To help me face another night
We'll set a course for the end of time
And maybe then I
Will finally get this whole thing right
Well maybe
It seems I've wasted every single opportunity
To get this right
And maybe
It's all because the inspiration that's inside of me
Has been denied
For all I want
And all I need
So I'm holding out
For a piece of good advice
To get me through this
To help me face another night
We'll set a course for the end of time
And maybe then I
Will finally get this whole thing right
It's all I want
It's all I need
It's all I want
It's all I need
So I'm holding out
For a piece of good advice
To get me through this
To help me face another night
We'll set a course for the end of time
And maybe then I
Will finally get this whole thing right
I'll get it right


anyone?? u know it??...without cheating??