"hi-jacked by the radio"

is there anything better than watching one of the people u love most in the entire world experience their bliss?? i was so happy to see them happy, how gr8 really!

the title was something spoken at the concert last nite....well 2 nights ago depending on ur concept of time. third eye blind. do i even have to tell u have amazing it was?? 2 encores, one of the best shows ever. they r now what they call a "cult band" meaning the ppl who r at their shows now, who listen to and love em r their fanatics really. no more of this mainstream crowd. dude said this is how they always wanted it, then they got hijacked by the radio, but they r so happy to be back and playing for those who really love their music, not just a catchy tune they heard while listening to the radio. i love that they said that. granted it was probably all a load of crap, but hey, i still loved it.

i think i do some of my best thinking at shows. i don't know y. maybe its the atmosphere and being by ppl who love music as much as myself and r as thrilled to be right their with what they love. there's really nothing quite like it. then again maybe it's the heat, dehydration, and smoke all combining to make me so outta it i think i'm thinking well. i dunno.

how is it that how is it that what's truly in our hearts and what comes outta our mouths somehow always gets messed up by the tongue in between? imperfection. yikes. u know actions do speak louder than words. a glass of water proved this to be true. that doesn't mean u shouldn't listen to ppl tho. ur words still have a lot of meaning. afterall, ur gonna end up speaking about what's in ur heart sooner of later, u can't always hide what's inside. sometimes that's a very good thing.

i saw a deal go down tonite. i couldn't help but think of you.

"all i want to do is be there, for all the things ur going thru" "every minute is another chance to get it right"

hiding inside a crowd, go where the musics loud

soooo i've stumbled across some pix for all of our ammusement. fantastic. i also caught a bit of a cold, therefore i haven't been up to much for the past like...2 days. i was taking a nap today (much needed) and my dad wakes me up and is like
"r u ok?"
"i'm kinda sick"
"well u've been home a bit lately just making sure everything's ok"
"i've been sick"
"ok, i'll let u sleep"

ok, so lemme get this straight, i'm home for 2 consecutive nites and my entz get worried. haha guess i'll be out and about tomorrow. seriously tho is it just me or is that a bit odd?? guess i'm gone a bit more then i've noticed. sweet i suppose, he noticed (my dad is one of the most unobservant ppl ever.) and then followed thru by asking. ppl need to do that more often, take the time to notice others and follow through with well, w/e they need to follow thru with, hanging out, a chat, help whatever it may be.

u ever get a bad feeling about something somewhere? got that. somethings off somehwere with someone, just not sure what. i'm sure i'll find out soon enough whether i want to or not, that's just how it worx.

content? i'm getting very restless again....maybe cuz it's becuz i've been home for 2 consecutive days (minus the bookstudy and work) haha. seriously tho. i've been thinking and i can't wait to be elsewhere doing so much more. i know i can do a lot of good, and just u watch, i will. in the meantime i'm widening out and pursuing my ministry more wholeheartedly and going to be devoting a lot more time to it. watch out september, we're stepping up, not backing down.

i've said it a lot. there r good ppl out there. it's just a matter of finding them. keeping them. long time coming, maybe this weekend?maybe? i dunno, balls not in my court. ur call, i'll wait. i'll wait till u say it's time. gonna right the wrong, or at least get a start on it. watch out now!

oh the pix, in no order orlando and i bust a move to the ammusement of others, pretty (nick) and spencer! disclaimer, and well yeah.

oh, for the record ska makes me happy. try starting ur day off listening to the happiest up beat music out there good things may follow. if not, well, at least u started ur day listening to some pretty sweet tunes.

random happenings

so here's the dealio. yes i said dealio. mest...anyone?? yeesh. so i haven't really been too good on this whole "sleep" thing lately. its caught up and i've been crashing terribly. not my fault!!! ok, partially my fault! i guess that's what happens when ur out a bit too l8 mon...tues..wed...well, u get the point. so now i'm kinda sick too. bummer.

so last week we did the wt study. good times i suppose. too bad my friends and i have an awful concept of time. the majority fell asleep in my living room. here's something u should know. i am the friend who will brew some fresh coffee just for u at the wee hours in the morning just to ensure u r awake enough to make it home safely. that's right, caffinate and kick out. sat. was the slip n slide. so i put up a waver...and i was the only one to get hurt. go figure. we got the brilliant idea to have some1 lay on their back and have a person grab each arm and run them down the slide. so jamin was going and somehow went sideways took me out i wiped out and twisted my knee a lil. no biggie everything is a okay!

sunday i crashed yet another convention. jamin drove and it rained. then his windshield wipers broke while in illinois on the freeway. naturally they had to brake while going up and were stuck in his view. no worries, i got this. i roll down the window and try to reach the wipers. too short. hmph! i grab his ice scraper in the back seat and try again. i get it. phew! man there's nothing like hanging out a car in the rain on the freeway 1st thing in the morning to wake u up. i dried off by the time we got there. what a gr8 convention!! i get goosebumps for the last talk everytime. there was some seriously cool ppl there as well. later that night i meet up with al an mikhael for smoothies and a stroll down in milwaukee along the lakeshore goodtimes.

reel big fish and mxpx tues. AWESOME.

lets skip ahead. last nite i went swing dancing. SO MUCH FUN. u c all the "pros" showed up, like the ppl who have been doing this for years and r just fantasitc. take dominic for example. this guy's so good he makes it look like i know what i'm doing! it wasn't just the dancing but the ppl that showed up. i met some awesome ppl! well, and got to know others even better. u know u have those ppl u see places...assemblies, parties and what not and u know them but u don't really know them? yeah those ppl showed up so i got to know them better, i'm so glad i did. and it happened yet again, i'm sitting there and a girl comes up to me "you're a leaders aren't u?? abby right??" ......."uhhh yeah". i really don't know y but it happens a lot. she was cool, knew me from when i was a lil one and hung with my brothers i guess. afterwards we went to george webbs to recieve the slowest service ever. haha oh we now have many stories from webbs! ok i have to leave town for a bit. l8er!

the here and now

john 15:13. lets hope it doesn't come to that, not yet at least.

letting go is harder then u'll ever know. i have no choice, i should've left when u left. i see that now. better late then never i suppose. it's great having people to help u see and accept this. so simply put (and u have no idea how perfect this is) "bye bye beautiful"

so i'm trying to figure out how to say thank u. not just thank u, but to let ppl know how much they've done for me, and mean to me, and how grateful i really am. i'm incredibly blessed. i don't wear my heart on my sleeve...i don't think i do. ok occasionally, but not always. so its hard to find the right words at the right time to express what i really need to convey to others. so this brings me to yet another random post. i'll figure out a way.

i've become a bit dull. no seriously, i was outta town this past weekend, and granted i was kinda depressed, but crap man!! i wasn't all that fun. no worries i'm finding my good ol self again. haha example. this weekend...i'm thinking friday after the wt study actually....biggest slip n slide ever! we have a bunch of them from jamin's grad party so i'm gonna line them all up going down the lil hill in the back yard, i'm probably gonna put soap or oil of some sort on it so ppl make it all the way. i'm thinking of taking a sled down it. we always have a variety of inflatable sea creatures to ride down on as well : ) not to mention the inflatable slide that u slide down onto the slip n slides! should be around 75 ft of slippery goodness!! no worries i'll try and remember to take pix.

new york anyone?it'd have to be this month. i'm giving some1 1st dibs. if ur interested tho lemme know. i have a friend in bethel and he's like (and i kid u not )"COME VISIT!" and so i'm like "I'LL TRY!" that'd be cool, i've never been to new york before. well i have ppl coming over so i should prob do what i have to do b4 they get here. take care all.

"wanna keep u from breaking, wanna keep u from shaking. wanna keep u from keeping u down."