the here and now

john 15:13. lets hope it doesn't come to that, not yet at least.

letting go is harder then u'll ever know. i have no choice, i should've left when u left. i see that now. better late then never i suppose. it's great having people to help u see and accept this. so simply put (and u have no idea how perfect this is) "bye bye beautiful"

so i'm trying to figure out how to say thank u. not just thank u, but to let ppl know how much they've done for me, and mean to me, and how grateful i really am. i'm incredibly blessed. i don't wear my heart on my sleeve...i don't think i do. ok occasionally, but not always. so its hard to find the right words at the right time to express what i really need to convey to others. so this brings me to yet another random post. i'll figure out a way.

i've become a bit dull. no seriously, i was outta town this past weekend, and granted i was kinda depressed, but crap man!! i wasn't all that fun. no worries i'm finding my good ol self again. haha example. this weekend...i'm thinking friday after the wt study actually....biggest slip n slide ever! we have a bunch of them from jamin's grad party so i'm gonna line them all up going down the lil hill in the back yard, i'm probably gonna put soap or oil of some sort on it so ppl make it all the way. i'm thinking of taking a sled down it. we always have a variety of inflatable sea creatures to ride down on as well : ) not to mention the inflatable slide that u slide down onto the slip n slides! should be around 75 ft of slippery goodness!! no worries i'll try and remember to take pix.

new york anyone?it'd have to be this month. i'm giving some1 1st dibs. if ur interested tho lemme know. i have a friend in bethel and he's like (and i kid u not )"COME VISIT!" and so i'm like "I'LL TRY!" that'd be cool, i've never been to new york before. well i have ppl coming over so i should prob do what i have to do b4 they get here. take care all.

"wanna keep u from breaking, wanna keep u from shaking. wanna keep u from keeping u down."