"and i miss u, even here taking it all in"

<--on some steps in vienna

wow. it's been forever. i don't even rememb

er the last time i posted. well i guess oodles and oodles of stuff has been going on. went to the conv again this past weekend, had my rockin chicago kids there. love them! the conv. itself was as usual exactly what i needed to hear.

umm...went to europe. this is how i describe the trip to everyone who asks. "europe was a week on a boat with 30 sum relatives." *shudders* never travel without ur budz! i mean it was so incredibly beautiful, but by the 2nd day ppl were ready to kill eachother, and jamin and i were ridiculously friend-sick. honestly the title "and i miss u even here taking it all in" -minus the bear, was all that kept running thru my head. i don't get homesick, and i figured out y. whenever i'm not at home i'm with friends. so i never ever am missing everyone all at once. well that was until europe. man i missed u guys!

been thinkin to myself alot. fireworx seen from rooftops downtown rock. totally worth the effort. some ppl r worth taking the risk. sometimes u just need to risk it find out then spend forever wondering.

i was bored on lunch one day. go figure. so naturally i sent out a mass txt. ppl develop a self image. how they think they look in the eyes of others. but what i think doesn't really tell me what u actually think. so i asked. i asked ppl to describe themselves in 3 words, to see if i see them how they see themselves. and then 3 words that describe me. in no order here's me in a nutshell. i wrote exactly what was sent to me, these r ur words, not mine.oh a lot were duplicates, hence the numbers, so u know how many times it was used. eye-opener. thanx guys.

hilarious 2

spontanious

fun loving 2

crazy 4

clumsy

fun 10

chill

spiritual 6

spunky 3

weird

corny

witty 2

vivacious

precious

easy to get along with

non-judgemental

sassy

outgoing 3

energetic

happy 3

determined

strong 2

loyal

bummy

funny

real

flippin freakin sweet

kind 2

social

comfortable

sweet

open

bold 2

confident 2

easy going 3

cool 5

into music 2

intellectual

yare

satariun

seapin

jamin's sister

laid back

friendly

trusting

slow to anger

open minded

intelligent 3

unpredictable

quirky

nice 3

radtastic

whimsical

caring 2

positive

tomboy

active

faithful

loving 2

fragile

friend

musicologist

insightful

uplifting

honest

unique

supportive

adventurous

energetic 2

interesting

awesome

easy to love

well i've typed far too much. i'm gonna call it quits and nap. l8er.