mellowdrone

somethings u just ought to know. somethings u just don't, quite frankly u won't. i know this much, i'm the kind of person who can befriend most anyone, not just them but their "group" as well. it's great really. problem. i have some of the greatest friends in the world. i'm completely sincere when i say that. i know these ppl will have my back no matter what. problem is i'm still not quite content it seems. it's driving me nuts, to have soo much and still feel i should be elsewhere doing something else. comes and goes really. hard to explain. anyone feel me on this??

u should know this. i am by far the worst possible bridesmaid ever. not kidding u here. allow me to explain. well, actually u don't have to allow me, i'm going to whether u like it or not. ok my weekend rocked. friday helped my buddie move then did our usual. the usual involves heading to the east side and hitting up our fav lil coffee house and pizza place. when its not freezing a stroll along the lakefront as well. ummm this is done pretty much every weekend if not more then once. ok sat i went with lauren on a journey to the thrift store....which we couldn't find. eventually we did. then hit the lovely downtown waukesha...haha waukesha what a dumb place. got some gilato...mmmmmm......gilato and a free hot cocoa score!! as we were driving back some lady was knocking on my window of the car at a stop sign. i look at lauren "there;s a crazy lady at my window. i'm gonna see what she wants" so i rolled it down and chatted with this crazy lady. she was nice advertising some new hair place or some jazz like that. wow. i got side tracked. ok well i finished that day by heading up north and hanging with my wonderful wonderful friends whom i love ever so much. gr8 times!!!

ok sunday morning i get up early (i'm still up north at a friends house). get ready and haul it down to port washington where i'm late for my friends talk. oops. afterwards i go with atom (friend who gave talk) leah (his wife) and luke an anna to eat. while eatting leah and i r talking about this great idea she had for a pioneer weekend. pretty much a bunch of ppl meet up in port we go out in service all day and then go camping that nite! fun! she we figure out a weekend. i then realize that super l8 for a wedding shower i said i'd be early to to help set up. seeing i'm standing up in it and all i figured i should help....well i was still coming from up north so i was a half an hour late to when the shower actually started...oops. ok, at the shower i started telling laura (maid of honor) bout the whole pioneer day camping thing. she asks when it is. i say the 1st weekend of nov. she just looks at me.
l: isn't there anything else going on that weekend?

a: i don't think so.

l: *stares blankly at me* r u sure??

a: yeah pretty sure.

l: what about THE WEDDING??!?!?!?!

a: OH CRAP!!!! I FORGOT! I'M THE WORST BRIDESMAID EVER!

yeah i'm at the wedding shower for the wedding i'm standing up in inviting ppl to come caping with me the same day as the wedding! i'm not gonna live that one down for wuite some time. i should really call leah and reschedule.

i believe u. the 3 sweetest words i've heard in such a long time. this weekend. long time coming to say the very least. i love my friends. i miss a lot of them a great deal. i think a lot of them don't miss me back. i think that's ok for now. i dunno y. u don't need to be missed all the time to be cared for. remind me that every once in awhile ok? thanx.